It was late afternoon, and this Friday, like so many others before it, found us in working on our new house. It had already been a busy morning, and all seemed well when the text came through. The text read "I need you now 911! - 911! “
Those 3 numbers can send one’s mind reeling in an instant. The conversations that followed were one nightmare after another, a veritable disaster. A relational bomb had blown a whole in our family a mile wide.
What do you do when someone you love makes choices that inevitably hurt your entire family? Since that October day, our family has been wrought with heartache. I have found myself all over the map emotionally, vacillating between heartbreak, shock, sadness and anger.
As a Christ follower, what are we to do with such powerful emotions, situations and people that we cannot change? According to David, in Psalm 121, our help comes from the LORD.
NKJV Psalm 121 I will lift up my eyes to the hills—From whence comes my help?
2 My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth
This is the space where I’ve purposed to live. It’s been hard - really, really hard. I’ll be the first to admit that I have cried alot and said things out of the deep hurt that needn’t be said. Still, HE meets me there in the middle of my brokenness. HE calms my heart with the comfort of HIS Word which rushes to the very forefront of my mind amidst the chaos. Words I have hidden there for such a time as this. My soul finds rest in these moments, until I need reminding again that HE IS. HE is good, HE is sovereign, HE is just, HE is loving, HE is gracious, HE is merciful! HE IS GOD. Despite my offenses, HE forgives and loves me the same; not any more or any less. This relentless love is the very same love we are called to give. A no matter what kind of love. An I love you even when you don’t deserve it kind of love. It’s not easy to do, yet we so eagerly look to receive it when we fall.
Friends, I challenge you to hide HIS Word in your heart. Memorize scripture regularly. Make prayer and the Bible your first response when life gets hard, so that when these trials come…. yes, when - HIS sacred promises will rush to remind you who you are in Christ and that all HIS plans are good (Jeremiah 29:11), even when we cannot yet see it.
This is not my first hard season, and it will not be my last. I pray though, that with every trial and sifting, I am quicker to run to Jesus and fall less. GOD is beyond faithful. HE has redeemed my mess ups and hurts time and time again in the most amazing ways. HE will do the same for you!
Choose HIM! Trust HIM! Follow HIM!
Through all of it! For we are called to walk by faith and not by sight. (2 Cor 5:7)
I’ll leave you with this excerpt from a poem about Mary and the crucifixion of Jesus by Jeremiah Denton, Easter 1969.
Her face shows grief but not despair,
Her head, though bowed, has faith to spare,
For even now she could suppose
His thorns might somehow yield a rose.
Her life with Him was full of signs
That God writes straight with crooked lines.
Dark clouds can hide the rising sun,
And all seem lost, when all is won!